or, this: overcaffeination: and i can't feel how heavy my eyelids really are, get accused of a night of drinking while i really just spent it sweating and pulling spider webs off my legs, bugs out of my hairs. several days of iced jars melting on sweltering sidewalks, that fan, ever the summer comfort, feeling instead like bugs and extra itching at that. okay, the bugs: enough with spiders, roaches, beetles, silverfishes. i'm needing a serious early summer attitude adjustment, cause i've only seen two weeks of them.
i liked my old, predictable schedule of madness; a new one, with possible origins: heavy eyelids, pink shades of home decor. and i wondered, what? is that really a beautiful face i'm making? the upsides to the dogged days: short shorts, chlorine water bleach smells, watermelon for a meal.
